Whew! Made it!
Not so long ago (only a matter of weeks ago, as a matter of fact), I started doubting my creative abilities.
The only manuscript I'd ever completed was Long Road. As I thought about the time, effort and emotional investment that went into writing my first manuscript, I began doubting whether or not I could do it again.
Start all over. New characters. New scenes. New plot.
I'm in awe of writers who can write book after book and make each character just as (or more) fascinating than the one before. Truth be told, I never pictured myself as the type of person who could do that.
I mean, it's one thing to dream up a plot, but to take an idea, put it down on paper and breathe life into the characters is something completely different.
I chose to participate in NaNoWriMo this year to challenge that self-doubt. Boy did I surprise myself when Penny's narrative passed the 50,000-word mark on Saturday night.
As I wrapped up her part of the story, I began weighing the pros and cons of participating in NaNo.
These are some of the things I came up with:
1. My daughters and husband have developed a nervous tick whenever I mention frozen pizza.
2.After pushing my internal editor aside to meet the deadline, I think she might assume she's on a permanent vacation.
1. Although it's the worst writing in the history of mankind, the foundation for a strong story with interesting characters has been established.
2. I've learned that emotional attachments to new characters do not form immediately, but they do happen quickly when you open yourself up to the idea.
3. I've learned than an 1,800-word-per-day goal isn't as daunting after you're 9,000 words into the story.
4. I've learned to let go of the perfectionist inside me that said my words had to be flawless when they hit the page.
5.Discipline isn't as scary as I once thought.
6.While the self-doubt still creeps in, it's not as powerful as it once was.
7. I now have something else over which to obsess while I send out queries for Long Road.
What about you? Was it scary for you to move on from your first manuscript? Did you do NaNo this year? Did you complete the goal? What did you learn?